Phone Chat

Few days ago, I started chatting in the phone with Myke. I really hate to chat in the phone because it freezes my ears and it becomes painful wen the conversation lasts even just for 30 minutes. Yet with Myke, I never bothered how long we were chatting. I just wanted to tell my stories and the fact that he's listening is a great thing. I felt someone special. He listens to me. And I the same.

I remember how our night conversations started, it's simple as oneday, I wanted to speak to someone so I texted him and asked if he was busy. The next moment, the phone was ringing. Next days followed, I aksed him to call every after the "Encantadia" a television fantaserye ends. I wanted to watch it each day and wait till it ends and in an instant, the phone will definitely ring.

I don't know, but I feel so wonderful whenever I talk to him. It feels so light. I hope I can talk with him for the rest of my life.

Well, Well, Well... am I falling? No. Yes. Oooopppsss... I don't know yet. If God permits, why not?!

Breakfast

I had a breakfast with him. I felt different. A lot of things changed. I saw our differences this time. There was even a scenario that made me turn off of him. It was an unlikely attitude. Rude. Destroying.

Today, I realized that I don't like him anymore. It's done. I'm over.

The mail

Today, I got the email that Ahia Myke told me that he'll send me after the examination. This is the content:

Subject: Confidential
Message:
Hello, this message is strictly just for your eyes only. I want to be straight w/ you, I dont want to beat around the bush. "Im falling in love with you." The first time I saw you I liked you then after the get together, I admired you. Then, I said to myself, "She is my kind of girl." I am attracted to you coz you are full of life, determination, guts and brain. I am sorry you're shocked about this message, I just cant help it. Actually matagal ko ng gustong i-mail sa yo ito kaso lang nagre-review ka and i dont want to disturb you baka ako pa ang maging dahilan pag bumaba ung score mo kya hinintay ko matapos yung exam mo. I got the courage to say this things to you dahil sa mail na na-forward mo sa kin remember "read alone someone might love you" yung last part kaya ko nasabi sa yo to. But dont worry di pa naman kita liligawan kasi may kailangan pa akong i-build ulit at alam ko rin mag ma-masteral ka pa & i dont want to become an obstacle. I wish all good things for you, I pray so hard that all your dreams do come true. I hope hwag maging dahilan itong nobelang ito para iwasan mo ko o.k right now mag-kaibigan muna tayo and I'll keep it that way para di ka mailang sa kin pero after 2yrs at wala ka pang bf I'll court you (yun naman ay kung papayag ka pero kung hindi that's fine still friend pa rin tayo at di kita PIPILITIN) so see you na lang my friend God bless you.

I smiled after reading the letter. He likes me. Yeah, he does. Flattering in a way, but I really didn't expect. It took me awhile to create my reply. Here it goes:

hi. I hope you're in good condition as you read my response. I was actually expecting a problem of yours to resolve on... yet there seems to be no problem at all. What you've emailed me was a mere reflection of your strength and courage to like and to love. And I admire you for that! Thank you for being honest and courteous and friendly. Thank you as well for waiting to tell me these things in the right time... I'm impressed. Don't worry, nothing will change. I pray that our friendhip will grow more in the sight of God. Let's not bother of the future things, God knows what to do and what will come ahead of us... Things will be revealed in His perfect time.
For now, let's be friends... no worries, i won't change!
By the way, have you prayed about your feelings to God? Hehehe;-)
See you soon,
yUmi

It's nice to know that he likes me. However, I don't seem to like him. I could not imagine myself and him--- together. Besides, as I've mentioned before he's my best's cousin and we are in the same church. I don't know how possible it would be.

Phonecall

I was able to get a hold on line with Ahia Myke, he is my bestfriend's cousin. He mentioned that he'll email me something when my exam is over.

What could it be? Something about his problem of his x-girlfriend? I remember he asked something on what to do and what to say to a girl in a certain situation. I gave him neutral answers. That would be it. I'm sure, its about that and I will be more than willing to help.

But why should wait for nextweek? Fishy!

Shot when over

A friend of my friend's friend gathered courage perhaps to ip'ed me. Well, we had a good chat. Such a conversationalist. He's an architect in MD.

We ip'ed each other for almost a month before I leave the company. He began to like me. I also began to like him. We went out dating for awhile. I enjoyed his company. I learned how to ride a bus because of him.

For a while my heart is being calmed by his messages. But I don't want to get so close to him. I might find it hard to leave. He knew I was about to resign the day he ip'ed me. Unluckily, things like that really happens.

Well, I must admit that my heart was shot by an arrow... but why when I needed to leave? I don't think I can afford to lose another person. Woh! but that statement was big. Not yet deserving. Erase. Erase. Erase.

Once again, the end is getting near.