The mail

Today, I got the email that Ahia Myke told me that he'll send me after the examination. This is the content:

Subject: Confidential
Message:
Hello, this message is strictly just for your eyes only. I want to be straight w/ you, I dont want to beat around the bush. "Im falling in love with you." The first time I saw you I liked you then after the get together, I admired you. Then, I said to myself, "She is my kind of girl." I am attracted to you coz you are full of life, determination, guts and brain. I am sorry you're shocked about this message, I just cant help it. Actually matagal ko ng gustong i-mail sa yo ito kaso lang nagre-review ka and i dont want to disturb you baka ako pa ang maging dahilan pag bumaba ung score mo kya hinintay ko matapos yung exam mo. I got the courage to say this things to you dahil sa mail na na-forward mo sa kin remember "read alone someone might love you" yung last part kaya ko nasabi sa yo to. But dont worry di pa naman kita liligawan kasi may kailangan pa akong i-build ulit at alam ko rin mag ma-masteral ka pa & i dont want to become an obstacle. I wish all good things for you, I pray so hard that all your dreams do come true. I hope hwag maging dahilan itong nobelang ito para iwasan mo ko o.k right now mag-kaibigan muna tayo and I'll keep it that way para di ka mailang sa kin pero after 2yrs at wala ka pang bf I'll court you (yun naman ay kung papayag ka pero kung hindi that's fine still friend pa rin tayo at di kita PIPILITIN) so see you na lang my friend God bless you.

I smiled after reading the letter. He likes me. Yeah, he does. Flattering in a way, but I really didn't expect. It took me awhile to create my reply. Here it goes:

hi. I hope you're in good condition as you read my response. I was actually expecting a problem of yours to resolve on... yet there seems to be no problem at all. What you've emailed me was a mere reflection of your strength and courage to like and to love. And I admire you for that! Thank you for being honest and courteous and friendly. Thank you as well for waiting to tell me these things in the right time... I'm impressed. Don't worry, nothing will change. I pray that our friendhip will grow more in the sight of God. Let's not bother of the future things, God knows what to do and what will come ahead of us... Things will be revealed in His perfect time.
For now, let's be friends... no worries, i won't change!
By the way, have you prayed about your feelings to God? Hehehe;-)
See you soon,
yUmi

It's nice to know that he likes me. However, I don't seem to like him. I could not imagine myself and him--- together. Besides, as I've mentioned before he's my best's cousin and we are in the same church. I don't know how possible it would be.

LET

I took the test today. I was nervous at first but I tried to calm down myself. There were some easy questions and hard questions. There were questions taken form the review classes. In General it was hard. Oh my, I don't know if I can make it.

"But my faith is in you, Lord."

I even saw Mary, Sabrina, Via and other psych majors of our University. I was unable to see new friends who I have just met in the review classes. I really do hope that we'll all pass the examination.

The result is indefinite. They did not said when it will be released. Gosh, my heart's pumping. I want to pass!!!

When I arrived home, my head was freaking aching. I was hungry and at the same time tired, so tired. My parents gave me hug and smiles cheering that we should celebrate for I've pass! Such a faith!

I have that faith!

Phonecall

I was able to get a hold on line with Ahia Myke, he is my bestfriend's cousin. He mentioned that he'll email me something when my exam is over.

What could it be? Something about his problem of his x-girlfriend? I remember he asked something on what to do and what to say to a girl in a certain situation. I gave him neutral answers. That would be it. I'm sure, its about that and I will be more than willing to help.

But why should wait for nextweek? Fishy!

Final Review Day

After 9 weeks of review classes, I will take the examination next week. Oh God! Help me, Lord. The butterflies are in my stomach again.

Shot when over

A friend of my friend's friend gathered courage perhaps to ip'ed me. Well, we had a good chat. Such a conversationalist. He's an architect in MD.

We ip'ed each other for almost a month before I leave the company. He began to like me. I also began to like him. We went out dating for awhile. I enjoyed his company. I learned how to ride a bus because of him.

For a while my heart is being calmed by his messages. But I don't want to get so close to him. I might find it hard to leave. He knew I was about to resign the day he ip'ed me. Unluckily, things like that really happens.

Well, I must admit that my heart was shot by an arrow... but why when I needed to leave? I don't think I can afford to lose another person. Woh! but that statement was big. Not yet deserving. Erase. Erase. Erase.

Once again, the end is getting near.

Review Classes

I should focus now with my review for LET. It all begun today, Sunday. Yes, I will not be able to go to church every Sunday because of this. I need to go to my beloved University to take the review.

I'm over with my recent resignation. I should concentrate now in this review. If and only if I took the test last year, I will no longer take this burden. It seems a burden to me. Howver, of course, I do want to pass the examination.

Help me, my God!

There's no such thing as perfect in the world

I realized that the saying "There's no such thing as perfect in the world" is indeed proven once again.

Comparing my two recent jobs, I came up with pluses and minuses of each. hera are the following.

In ISB, the location and the office was very perfect. In KFC-MD, the HRMD building is too old, seem like when a big wind blow, everything will fly.

In ISB, I have all the resources I need- my own phone, my own pc, I have my own outlook and email add, I had 3 desks, everything in there. In KFC-MD, the phone is shared by the whole team of EWS, I wouldn't have my pc if I did not picked one of the old monitors and cpu's lying in the dirty room and if did not used my charm to ask a guy to install things for me, i even shared my outlook and email address with another person, I didn't even had a place to put my things. In short there was scarcity in everything.

In ISB, there were too many work, I was always pressured from the tasks and by the people around me that needed my service. Plus, I am not well compensated. In KFC-MD, there were very few pressures, and I handled them very well and I felt I receive more than the other.
In ISB, my 2 bosses were extremely bad. I even thought that all bosses are like them. Until, I met my bosses in KFC-MD, there, I realized that not all superiors are bad, there are good ones, or should I say great ones who would handle there people with respect and care. Thanks to S'Ern'z and S' Odj.

Common Denomiator of both companies? I did find friends. Lasting friends. Beautiful friendships that bloomed.

Conclusion: There's nothing perfect, something will always lack. Thus, it is something to be accepted.

"A man should turn his back in order to lead an orchestra." - S'Ernz

"Like the dominoes, if one will fall, the rest shall follow."- Will

Last day in KFC-MD

It's my final day yesterday in the office. It seemed noisy outside but quiet inside. I prepared merienda for my despedida in HRMD, as usual, we had a small gathering in the afternoon, they all gave their final goodbyes to me.

I remember Sir Leonard's message. I just don't know why I remembered it in particular, perhaps it was common? Well, he shared "A thousand journey begins in a single step" - by Confucius.

Before time, I ip'ed him and bid my goodbye. It hurt saying goodbye. I knew things between us will never be the same once I step out of the office. I just told him that, "I will remember the rain, the umbrella and the kiss." He agreed it was something special.

The day became night, we continued celebrating my despedida in Heidz house, there we all ate, drunk, sung, danced. It was a happy time. Picture taking everywhere. Such an awesome night. A night to be fully kept in heart.

I thought it was just that until the girls of OD sung "Farewell". It was a nice song sung by them. My eyes became teary. I wanted to burst but I can't seeing their smiles. I wished that moment lasted and satayed on that forever. But, it is just a moment... in few seconds... the song ended.

My bosses gave their last messages to me. The night ended in a very special song sung by my 2 bosses- S'Ernz and S' Odj... it was "My Way". They sung it nicely. And I swear, whenever I hear this song again, they two will be the people that pop up in my mind.

The night finally ended. Today, as I write this, I'm no longer an employee of KFC-MD/HRMD/OD/EW/ER. Yet, I will always be a part of the family.

5:00 People

For several days, our team takes our break evry 5:00 pm outside the very old building of the HRMD. We gather together, eat together and have small talks, we share things about different views, perspective... healthy conversations with smart people.

I love these breaks, I really do. When I'll be gone, I'll definitely miss these things- the foods, the chat, the people.

Lifeline

Sir Odjie prepared several things for us. It's like a team building but only inside a four-cornered room.

Our team was asked to write our "Lifeline" and indicating each special event in our lives and indicating how we felt each time if we were on our low, medium or high esteems. It was reflected through graphs.

They made theirs. I made mine. I made it sure that I have written all the significant events in my life that had an impact on me starting from my toddler years until this very moment that I'm with the team.

Without hesitations, all of us including our bosses laid our lives. Our happy and sad days, our frustrations, regrets in life... everything scoped by each title we placed in the sheet of paper... a sheet of paper that mean't almost my whole life... the sheet of paper which reminded me of my pasts and which reminded me how I was made today.

I heard their stories first. I was the very last person who laid my life in the circle. My heart beated so fast before I started my first word. Then, when I started out, I spoke simultaneously. I was laughing with my lifelilne and almost crying at the same time. They- I felt how curious they were that moment about me. My life is not that interesting but at that very moment, I felt as if my life is like a book chased by people to be read. All eyes on me. Staring. All ears on me. Listening. I laid my life on these people. I gave them the right to become a part of me. After my speech, it felt great. It's as if I've known them for almost 10 years and vice versa.

"My Lifeline"- I chose to keep it forever and continue processing the my lifeline, reflecting on significant events that occured in my life. It's about my lifestory. Perhaps, if in time, I'll get an amnesia and forget the things in my life... I'll be able to recognize things and and remember events if I will be able to see this "Lifeline". I said it so because it perfectly summarizes almost everything, everything.