True enough, God works in wondrous ways we cannot fathom. He takes control of everything. Today, I felt like I was falling from a high cliff. During the fall, I felt the pain in my heart. Every second of the fall added misery. It felt as if I can no longer breathe. During the fall, I've totally surrendered my life and accepted that I was really about to die. Yet I repeat, God works in wondrous ways we cannot imagine. He takes control of everything. In the very minute, that my head seems to reach the ground, in an instant flash, God catch me and save me, lifting me higher, higher, higher back in the peak of the cliff. I felt nervousness and joyfulness both at the same time. God works in wondrous ways we cannot fathom. He takes control of everything. He really does.
This really happened to me. I had my final interview today for the e-mail account. There were thirteen of us who were interviewed and only 5 will take the hot slots. When the time the personnel chose the applicants, there were only three names mentioned. One of the three is my friend (Ellon), so he had to stay. When we were about to leave the floor, the personnel asked my two other co-waves to stay (Sheryl & Roj) coz she said that they also passed... And I was left alone. Alone to go home. I did not went home alone, I was with another friend (Jhun- eyeing for another position). He comforted me. I said I was okay. But deep-down inside, I wasn't really fine.
Hours passed, I got home not in mood. I entered our home and I immediately went inside my room to change clothes, to take rest. Depressed and lone. I did not speak anything. I tried to hide everything that happened this day from my mom, while she kept asking and bugging me. I dialed my hone's number. I wanted to talk to him, so he could ease my sadness. I was hoping that he would have passed his final interview. However,he didn't. It added to my sorrow. I wanted to grief. But I just merely can't coz I'm trying to fight and to overcome my depression. Few minutes passed, the phone rang, it was for me. It was my hone. He knew how sadenned I was but he tried to cheer me up. After the short conversation, I've finally told myself to move on and go on... that tomorrow would be another day!
When I got into my room and checked my cellular fone, I got a text message stating that they needed one more candidate for the account and I was next in line. She asked me to get the medical endorsement slip the following day and to submit other requirements. When I read the message, tears fell from my cheeks. I cried out of joy. My mom saw how the tears of joy fell in my eyes, she also cried. I narrated her the day's story and we were both amazed how God made a miracle in my life today. In the corner of my mind, I still can't believe how things turned out to be. I thought Ellon was trying to bluff me. But he didn't. I was able to talk to Ellon and he said, that he would not dare bluff me at all anything regarding work- for it is a serious matter.
True enough, God works in wondrous ways we cannot fathom. He takes control of everything. Today, I felt like I was falling from a high cliff. In the very minute, that my head seems to reach the ground, in an instant flash, God catch me and save me, lifting me higher, higher, higher back in the peak of the cliff.Thank you, Lord! I love you so much!
