My Promise to God

Today, I finally gave God all the Glory, all the honor, all the praises, all the worship and all the thanksgiving in my life.

I shared my "First Life Testimony" at church which lasted for one and a half hour.
It felt great. I laid cups of tears during my moment while laying to the elders of our church how God moved and worked in my life.

First off, I gave the bible verse Proverbs 19:21 which states, "Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is God's purpose that will prevail."

Then I went on relating all the things that happened, chapter by chapter, event by event, feeling by feeling.

I told them that I'm aware that they could be bored with everything that I'm narrating but I didn't care at all, I simply care about pleasing God that moment and to glorify Him in my life.
I gave 3 things that makes your prayer requests answered. The following are:

1. Confess your weaknesses to significant people who you don't want to know what really happened. In my case, I confessed my failure to my Professor in College before I took the test.

2. Pray that particular prayer item together with the family often.

3. Write your inner desires and prayers in a tablet says the bible. So it shall come to pass. In my case, I wrote it in a piece of paper, and here in my website.=))

Pananalig

"3:30 am, bangon na! Maligo na at maghanda sa huling araw ng pagpasok sa trabaho." ito ang mga nasa isip ko.

Nung paalis nako at ihahatid na ni Papa, "Hay, eto na ang araw na pinakahihintay ko, teka, makuha nga yung php 50 na pamasahe ko". Bag bukas ng pitaka, pagulat kong nasabi, "may extra money ako, pano na-doble 'to? ang alam ko, eto nalang ang pera ko... hmmm". Bigla akong napangiti, at bigla kong nasabi na "Pasado ako sa exam". Nagpabango ako agad, pumasok sa kwarto kung san natutulog sina mama at sinabi ko sa kanya ng may halong excitement, "Ma, pasado nako sa test!". Nagising siya ng nakangiti, nagtanong na, "Talaga anak, pano mo nalaman?". "Basta lang, pasado, ako!" sabay halik sa pingi nya upang magpa-alam. Napangiti na lamnag siya at agad na bumalik sa pagkakahiga at natulog muli matapos kong bulabugin ng kay aga. Pagkalabas ko ng kwarto, nasabi ko sa sarili kong "It's gonna be a great day, ibubuhos ni Lord yung blessing nya sa akin!". Positive Thinking! Oo naman. Dapat lang. Hnaggang sa ihatid ako ng aking Papa, hanggang sa makasakay ng bus, ng jeep at tuuluyang makarating sa Exportbank Plaza.;

Sa loob-loob ko, "Isang napakagandang araw nito". Pag-upo ko, ginawa ko na ang mga routines sa umaga, pero hindi ako makapag-log-in ng tama, walang lumalabas na Macro sa H drive ko, paulit ulit nakong nag-restart ng pc. Mga ilang sandali ang lumipas, dumating na ang mga kasama ko, hindi pa rin ako nakaklog ng tama. Maya-maya pa ay tinannonog ako ng ka-opisina ko kung kamusta na yung resulta nung exam. Tinugon ko siyang ganito, "Interview ko na". "E di pasado ka na?", muli nyang tanong, "Wala pa ang result, mamaya ko pa lang malalaman" aang sagot ko. "E pano mo nalaman na pasado ka kung wala pang result?" tanong nung isa naming kasamahan, "Positive Thinking.", ang tugon ko, "Positive thinking lang yan, alam ko pasado na ako." bukod dun, tinugon ko siya sa aking isip, "that's what I call FAITH- something not see but the evidence of things I hope for!". Ngunit diko na yun binulalas, hindi ko namna na dapat sagutin pa eh. It's enough for me that God knows I have this Faith, claiming what I should have this time, as he have promised.

Yeah Faith, later on, bigla ko nalang nasabi, "ayan may macros nako nito.", maya-maya nga, lumabas na nag macros ko... yun nga ang faith, diko naman talaga alam kung lalabas ang macro ko nung sinabi kong lalabas yon eh, pero lumabas nga ang macro ko, di ba faith yon? Ang galing! lahat ng sabihin ko natutupad.

Bukod sa extra money ko for today, hindi ko na din kinakilangan magbayad para sa lunch ko, kasi nilibre ako ni Jan Paul, hahah, hinde, actually, may utang siya sa akin na lunch kaya, turn nya naman ngayon. Ang galing, hindi ko na kinailangn pang magbayad today. Blessing, di ba?!
Ang galing-galing talaga, I feel so blessed kahit diko pa nakikita yung blessing na hinahanap ko, alam ko answred prayer na ako.

Nung hapon, dumating yung isa naming kasamahan, may dalang chocolates, another blessing?! Heheh, pero cyempre, shinare ko naman din kay Jan Paul yung chocolate na bigay sakin.;)
Tapos, nung nag-log-out ako sa IROZ, ang galing, isang beses lang ako nag-punch, okay na agad, pero hindi yun ganon nung mga nakaraang araw, laging, inaabot na ako ng mga 3:08, bago maka-log-out.

Nung nakasakay nako sa jeep, tumawa na si Hone at binungad anko ng pagbati, "Congatulations, Sweet?", si ko maitagio ang ngiti ko nung marining ko ung congratulations, pakiramdam ko, daig ko pa ang nanalo sa miss universe, hindi ko pa namna nakikita yung hanap ko, pero, labis na ang saya ko, yun ang FAITH.

Mabilis ang byahe sa MRT. Nung nasa Fx nako, bigla nalang umulan, nababsaa ko ang isip ng ibang tao, tungkol sa ulan... ang iba ay masaya, ang iba ay nag-aalala kasi wal silang dlang payong, ang iba ay nayayamot, ang iba parnag sinira ng ulan ang araw nila. Hay, ewan ba... ako,,, nung umulan, nakangiti ako... parang sinansabi sakin ng Diyos na "Hayan ang mga pagpapala ko sa iyo, anak, tanggapin mo, nais kong maging masaya ka!". Kaya naman ang ngiti ko, ngiti kung ngiti. Kahit sa likod ako ng tricycle sumakay, kahit malakas ang hangin at malakas ang ulan, okay lang, alam ko namang punagpala ako eh.

Pagkadating ko ng bahay, nilapag ko lnag ang gamit ko, nagpunas saglit ang kinuha nag telepono, tumawag nako sa GAO ng DLSU. Narining ko ang pamilyar na boses ng babe na siyang nag-asikaso din sakin noon nung nagsubmit ako ng requirements. Tinanong ko yung tungkol sa result, binigay ko ang petsa kung kelan ako kumuha ng exam, sabi nya, sa Lunes daw tumawag ako dun sa departamento para malaman ang schedule nung interview. Pgakatapos ay bigla nalang siyang nagpaalam at binaba nag telepono.

'Malabo, hindi ko naintindihan yung sinabi nya", sabi ko sa sarili ko, kaya naman, tumawag ulit ako at nilinaw ang mga bagay-bagy kay Ma'am. Ang sabi nya, part ng process ang interview, pagkatapos ng interview tsaka lang malalaman kung pwedeng ng mag-enroll. Pagkatapos nya i-explain, nauunawaan ko na sa pagkaktaong yaon. Pagkababa ko ng telepono, nasabi ko nalnag, "pasado na ako dun!" Yun ang Faith o pananampalataya. Diko pa din nakita o nalman ang tunay na resulta, pero nananalig ako na okay na ang lahat.

Salamat, Lord! Maghahanda na ako para sa interview. Isang kakaibang araw, ang lahat ng naiisin ng aking puso ay naibigay na sa araw na ito.

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One day to go... I'll be knowing exactly what will be the exam's result. Only one thing shall happen it's either I pass or I pass! Oh, you might think I'm overacting on this issue... well, think what you want. I'm just exercising my faith and I'm pretty sure that there's nothing wrong about that, eh?!

My heart beats so fast though I know I'll pass. Waiting period makes it hard for me, as it prolongs my agony. It's like it's holding my lungs and pumping it now and then which makes it hard for me to breathe. I'm getting nervous. Getting scared. But thinking it over, I should not, as I have given God all my fears and I have let Him do want He wants to do in my life, as He is God and He knows what should or should not happen in my life, better as I know.
I was actually at peace but the thought that the result is already released, can't help it... I'm disturbed by the silence here in the office, with all alone the ticking of the keyboards, no other noice, no voices.

Lord, please take away these doubtful feelings and fears that I have. I know you've answered my prayer, long before time. Give me strength, give me peace. Take my heart at rest and let me remember the wondrous things You've bestowed in my life for 23 years... remind me that my life is not about me... that my life is about You.

... Hold me close
Let your love surround me
Bring me near, draw me to your sight.
And as a wait, I'll rise up like an eagle.
And I will soar with You, Your spirit leads me on
By the power of Your love...
I entrust everything about my life, to YOU, My God!

The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom

"The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom."

- This was emphasized by our church Pastor today. Indeed, if you fear God, fear not in the sense that you're scared of Him, instead fear that portrays reverence... you will most likely do good things to almost all the people that surround you.

Genie in a Bottle

What will you do if you ever find a bottle with a genie inside? What if the genie gives you three wishes. What will you wish for? Will you also wish for wealth, power and freedom of the genie like Aladin did wish? Or you would simply wish all for your own? Before the the genie utter the words "Your wish is my command." Will you really not regret?

Given a chance to meet a genie, First, I will wish for wealth and material possessions so I may be able to share it to the poor and needy which will eventually make me happy. Second, I will wish that all people in world would know Christ and accept Him as a personal Lord and savior. In that case, all people will be good. Lastly, I will wish that I'd become a part of the ocean when I die so people will often remember me not just on summers but in all seasons of the world.

Footprints in the Sand

One night a man had a dream.

He dreamedhe was walking along the beach with the LORD.

Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.

For each scene he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand:

one belonging to him, and the other to the LORD.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him,he looked back at the footprints in the sand.
He noticed that many times along the path ofhis life there was only one set of footprints.

He also noticed that it happened at the verylowest and saddest times in his life.
This really bothered him and he questioned the LORD about it:

"LORD, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way.

But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life,there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me."

The LORD replied:
"My son, my precious child,I love you and I would never leave you.

During your times of trial and suffering,when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."

"Whenever I read the Footprints in the sand, my tears won't stop falling as I remember God's sweet embrace in my life. I'm sharing this so that God may also imprint in your life."

God saves

True enough, God works in wondrous ways we cannot fathom. He takes control of everything. Today, I felt like I was falling from a high cliff. During the fall, I felt the pain in my heart. Every second of the fall added misery. It felt as if I can no longer breathe. During the fall, I've totally surrendered my life and accepted that I was really about to die. Yet I repeat, God works in wondrous ways we cannot imagine. He takes control of everything. In the very minute, that my head seems to reach the ground, in an instant flash, God catch me and save me, lifting me higher, higher, higher back in the peak of the cliff. I felt nervousness and joyfulness both at the same time. God works in wondrous ways we cannot fathom. He takes control of everything. He really does.

This really happened to me. I had my final interview today for the e-mail account. There were thirteen of us who were interviewed and only 5 will take the hot slots. When the time the personnel chose the applicants, there were only three names mentioned. One of the three is my friend (Ellon), so he had to stay. When we were about to leave the floor, the personnel asked my two other co-waves to stay (Sheryl & Roj) coz she said that they also passed... And I was left alone. Alone to go home. I did not went home alone, I was with another friend (Jhun- eyeing for another position). He comforted me. I said I was okay. But deep-down inside, I wasn't really fine.

Hours passed, I got home not in mood. I entered our home and I immediately went inside my room to change clothes, to take rest. Depressed and lone. I did not speak anything. I tried to hide everything that happened this day from my mom, while she kept asking and bugging me. I dialed my hone's number. I wanted to talk to him, so he could ease my sadness. I was hoping that he would have passed his final interview. However,he didn't. It added to my sorrow. I wanted to grief. But I just merely can't coz I'm trying to fight and to overcome my depression. Few minutes passed, the phone rang, it was for me. It was my hone. He knew how sadenned I was but he tried to cheer me up. After the short conversation, I've finally told myself to move on and go on... that tomorrow would be another day!

When I got into my room and checked my cellular fone, I got a text message stating that they needed one more candidate for the account and I was next in line. She asked me to get the medical endorsement slip the following day and to submit other requirements. When I read the message, tears fell from my cheeks. I cried out of joy. My mom saw how the tears of joy fell in my eyes, she also cried. I narrated her the day's story and we were both amazed how God made a miracle in my life today. In the corner of my mind, I still can't believe how things turned out to be. I thought Ellon was trying to bluff me. But he didn't. I was able to talk to Ellon and he said, that he would not dare bluff me at all anything regarding work- for it is a serious matter.

True enough, God works in wondrous ways we cannot fathom. He takes control of everything. Today, I felt like I was falling from a high cliff. In the very minute, that my head seems to reach the ground, in an instant flash, God catch me and save me, lifting me higher, higher, higher back in the peak of the cliff.Thank you, Lord! I love you so much!

When it rain, it pours

It's really true that when God bless you, He blesses you through and through.

God is so good to me. He showers me with overflowing blessings that I almost cannot contain. I wanna shout and inform the world how great HE is!

Sometimes, I think that I am not worthy of all these things and I even want to ask God why he's blessing me too much but I won't dare do so I will never question God.

I know and I believe in my heart that He has so many plans for me and a lot more is yet to come.

"Lord, I know your ways are higher than mine. I'll follow your leading and trust your desire!"