I'm extremely in love

Oh well! Just wanna inform the world that I'm in love...;-)

Grabe, sarap ng feeling... after couple of years... now, I'm able to love again.=)

Agreement

Myke and I agreed that our Anniversary date would be not the 1st of November instead the 30th of October where we first gained extreme special feeling for each other. We also agreed that he'll call me "Sweet" and I'll call him "Hone".

That's the Deal.

Two become One

12 midnight we chatted on the phone. Expressed our feelings about the recent event and about ourselves. It was a long talk.

I realized that we have chatted on the phone for almost over a month. We went out dating only sevarl times. Yet, I feel like I have known him since the very beginning and vice versa.
Today, I gave him my heart.I don't know how long this affinity will last. I pray forever. I pray it ends... NEVER!

*I decided to write my first note. I'll gonna write him notes everyday until we reach our 1st year Anniversary. That's gonna be 365 love notes for my Hone.

Post Celebration of KKB Anniversary

Yesternight, we gather together, prayed, mingled with each other, played, sung, danced, laughed, ate and a lot more. There were many activities prepared. The event was fun.
For me, the most interesting part is when I spent little but quality time with Myke. It was our first time to be together after our recent dating. Thus, I can't help my self singing the song "I Will".

Who knows how long I've loved you?

You know I love you still

Will I wait a lonely lifetime?

If you want me to, I will

For (and) if I ever saw you

I didn't catch your name

But it never really mattered

I will always feel the same

Love you forever and forever

Love you with all my heart

Love you whenever we're together

Love you when we're apart

And when at last I find you

Your song will fill the air

Sing it loud so I can hear you

Make it easy to be near you

For (and) the things you do endear you to me

You know I will...I will...

Love you forever and forever

Love you with all my heart

Love you whenever we're together

Love you when we're apart

And when at last I find you

Your song will fill the air

Sing it loud so I can hear you

Make it easy to be near you

For (and) the things you do endear you to me

Oh, you know I will

I shared some special moments with Myke when we brushed out teeth together after the dinner, when I leaned on him and carressed his hair while we're sitting back to back. I find it sweet. Romantic. Appealing. Joy. Peace. Hope. Love.

On our way out to the place, all the KKB's walked to home. i wanted him to walk beside me. But we were unable to walked togetehr because the other KKB members held me and others held him. Geez! That was our momnet why did they stole it form us?

I was about to cross the street. But I realized his cellfone and wallet are in my bag. There! I got the chance to talk to him, finally. BUt, he walked to fast. I was calling his name. he can't hear me. I run. I really felt I should return those things to him that moment or else... or else... I don't know.

At last, he heard me. But before I say a word, I stopped, tried to catch my breath. He was stared at me. Then, I gave his things. I told him that I ran to catch him and to catch my breath, no, to return those things. The rest was history.

I went home excited to talk to him and to text him. The last thing I remember he said, "You are now my priority."I. Becoming a priority of someone? I got flattered. Mac never prioritized me. Ryan did. but I did not want him to do so. Now, this man is telling me that Iam his priority. That's a big statement. he needs to prove that one.

Later on... I slept.

KKB Anniversary

Later, in the evening, we'll celebrate the JIL SP9's KKB Anniversary in Zoe. I know he'll come with us. It's a great time to mingle with the KKBs and get to know Myke as well.
Can't wait.

Application in AMA

After failing the GCAT, I took chances to apply for work in a school setting this time in the Tertiary level. It doesn't matter if I don't have a masteral unit yet. I just feel good about this. I had the feeling that I'll get the job.

I went in AMA Computer University to apply the other day. Whoala! Just after an examination and an interview. They called me once again today for a demo-teaching. I did what was asked. I prepared "Erik Erikson's Theory of Development" as my topic

I didn't had many butterflies in the stomach this time. After the demo, I felt great. The professors who watched my demo were speechless I guess on the way I delivered my topic about Psychology. It so happened that one of them, amazingly knows me... as if he had met me. But, nay, I haven't really talked to him even once. He knows my mom and I was surprised in the turn of events. Gotta have colleagues immediately, huh?!

I was asked to start immediately by next Wednesday. My schedule would be every MWF. Wow, it's amazing! Imagine, I don't even have any master's unit but hey, I'm teaching in the collegiate level! Such a blessing!

Indeed, when "God closes a door, He opens a window."

When it rain, it pours

It's really true that when God bless you, He blesses you through and through.

God is so good to me. He showers me with overflowing blessings that I almost cannot contain. I wanna shout and inform the world how great HE is!

Sometimes, I think that I am not worthy of all these things and I even want to ask God why he's blessing me too much but I won't dare do so I will never question God.

I know and I believe in my heart that He has so many plans for me and a lot more is yet to come.

"Lord, I know your ways are higher than mine. I'll follow your leading and trust your desire!"

Conversations

I had several wonderful conversations this day. I had conversations with several significant people in my life. People who are distant to me. People whom I consider special. It's really nice to know that even though time and distance separates us apart they are all still there. I miss them so much!

I was able to have a converse with someone I treat special I just don't know if he feels the same way I'm not expecting but I'm hoping somehow. He made my day! I also had a great time with my churchmates it was like a heavenly moment with them. And of course, my former officemates whom I consider my next family gave their regards. I miss them a lot! I miss spending time and making memories with them. And of course, I had a wonderful conversation with my close friend in college.Jeslie, my dear sister, Oh my! I felt so glad to catch you online. My heart wanted to leap out of joy the short moment that we'e been together. I miss our friendship. Though I know, that it would always be there, I miss your company. I miss the days that we're together. The days we crammed, the days we eat fries and floats in Mc Donalds. The days we talked about our heartaches and heartbreaks. The days that we would laugh and cry together. The days we shared our dreams. The days we achieve some of the dreams. Even the day we had a cold fight. I miss our college days. I miss the days of our lives. I have never told you but I'm so glad that you became a part of my favorite journey. I know someday, we will be able to have the worthy and deserving man of our lives, the one who will love us unconditionally. Let's just be patient enough, I know we will! God moves in mysterious ways! After all the years we've been together, ngayon lang yata ako mag-thank you say, salamat talaga ha. I may sound so dramatic and sentimental right now but I don't care this is what I feel. Thank you, sis!

And to those who are reading this blog- thanks for the time. I'm glad to share a part of my life with you guys!

"We're never getting younger but we are getting wiser!"

First Failure

Today, I learned that I failed the GCAT. I can no longer take my Master's in our School. It gloomed the moment I learned that I failed. It's my first failure. I didn't know how to console my heart.

Until I visited my EWS Family, I brought a cake for them and told nothing about the result. For the first time I kept it on my own. I did not stayed long because they're almost done with their luch. It's just nice to see them again.

I had a scheduled date today, I met Ahia Myke in SM. It's our first date after long and undending converstaions at night, we've finally decided to take the next step... dating. I told him that I failed. But it was not that hurtful at all. I still managed to smile, perhaps because he was there. Well, I don't care. It hurts when I do. I just think of it as a challenge. We watched "The Legend of Zorro". Of course, we enjoyed the movie.

I began to notice his beautiful little eyes, well, because he's chinese. He's a real gentleman. I like him... a LOT now!

Ordinary day. Again, left alone. Mind occupied. Waiting something inside. Want to hear the gentle and soothing voice of a man. Mind from nowhere.

Ring... Ring... it was the phone. I walked towards where it is and answered, "Hello? Oh? Hah? Talaga!" then I felt my mind smiled. I felt I wanted to shout. I felt happy. I get backed to the person on line and asked, "E, ikaw? Ha? Bakit?." Silence. "Hay! Sayang. Ok ka lang? Promise ha, ok ka lang?! OO naman no, tawag ka pa din minsan ha?Ok. Babye. Thank you!"

Cellphone beeping. 1 Message Received. Open. Papa. "Nak, pasado ka sa exam."

I smiled. Chose reply. "Opo, thank you po."

I passed the LET. Next thing on my mind- Newspaper! I will buy a newspaper and see with my own eyes, my name listed.

I jumped and said, "Thank you, Lord, thank you!"

"Truly, God answer our prayers in HIS perfect time. He may answer YES, NO or WAIT. This prayer item of mine... GOD answered YES. Thank you, Lord. I bring back to you all the praise and glory"

JIL Anniversary 2005

I'll see Myke in Luneta in the JIL Anniversary. I'll be going with my dad and mom but I hope to see him there.

Looking around. Being conscious he's there. To the left. To the right. Maybe infront. He might be at the back. I still can't see him. Till, I saw my churchmates. I saw my bestfriend. I smile at my best. Yet, the perosn I was looking was was not there. Is he really not there. Oh no, he's really not.

I looked around again. Until my world stopped when my best told me that he's going to meet his cousin Ahia Myke somewhere because he can't find us... because he can't find me? He went. My heart's pumping. Beating. Terrible. Do I look alright? Do I look great? He should see me at my best. Or else. Or else. Nah!

I'm listening to the sounds of the wind. Carefully listening to his footsteps. however, I hear a lot of people wlking around, laughing, speaking. Sounds around me. High volume of microphone. Cheers. Everything. Amidst of everything, I can feel he's getting near me... nearer and nearer... he seemed.

Until, I was sure about he's really there. But, I did not looked. I did not raised my head and try to find where I can feel him. I wanted him to look at me first. I know he was staring so. But, but, but, my moment was destructed when I heard a squeaky voice of a girl. I don't like it. I don't want her. I wanted him.

My best seated near me. I was not sure if Myke seated beside us. But I can feel him. It's magic when you begin to feel people near you even without seeing them near you, isn't it?

Onething, I wanted... I wanted him to notice me. So I stood up and ask my Best if we could buy something. I ended up going with Gerald, my best's brother. I knew he noticed me and I knew he wanted inside to join us. Nay, he didn't

We got back. I heard one moment that my mom and dad spoke with him. I smiled knowing that. It carressed my heart. It gave me peace. It gave me joy.

I wanted him to join us to go home. Yet, he did not joined us. He was with his sister and the girl I didn't like him to be with. I got irritated. I was sad.

Yet, happy still since I got hold of my bestfriend. We haven't talked for sometime, since he married, since I left ISB. We talked in the jeepney on our way home. Yet, I never told him what I feel for his cousin. Not this time. No, not yet.

The day ended. I wanted to rest. To sleep. To dream.

GCAT

It's Saturday. I went in the University today. I even saw Christy Geografo, she's a friend and co-psych major of mine. We're both taking our chances for the GCAT.

We took the test. I found it difficult. Very difficult. My head totally ached after taking the test. I felt I was going to fail that very moment after I left the room.

Gosh! Lord, I leave it all to you.

Phone Chat

Few days ago, I started chatting in the phone with Myke. I really hate to chat in the phone because it freezes my ears and it becomes painful wen the conversation lasts even just for 30 minutes. Yet with Myke, I never bothered how long we were chatting. I just wanted to tell my stories and the fact that he's listening is a great thing. I felt someone special. He listens to me. And I the same.

I remember how our night conversations started, it's simple as oneday, I wanted to speak to someone so I texted him and asked if he was busy. The next moment, the phone was ringing. Next days followed, I aksed him to call every after the "Encantadia" a television fantaserye ends. I wanted to watch it each day and wait till it ends and in an instant, the phone will definitely ring.

I don't know, but I feel so wonderful whenever I talk to him. It feels so light. I hope I can talk with him for the rest of my life.

Well, Well, Well... am I falling? No. Yes. Oooopppsss... I don't know yet. If God permits, why not?!

Nostalgia

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My heart is grieving. It's as if somebody died. Or should I say that it's my heart dying. Blood are my tears dwelling from my eyes... longing to have him just like once before. But I guess, it'll never happen again. His and my love story has ended though I knew it never even started.
I just wanted to hear him say that he love me... but he never did. Perhaps, he does not really love me at all and never he will...

But I... I did love him and I can courageously spell that I L-O-V-E-D H-I-M,,, courageously shout silently only in a small corner of this world... so he won't hear me and that he'll never really learn...!

Why do I get hurt when all I intended is to love? Can somebody tell me...

I wanna get out from this nostalgic feeling and be freed away from you...

Please go... but for once, let me tell you this, "I love you, goodbye..."

Breakfast

I had a breakfast with him. I felt different. A lot of things changed. I saw our differences this time. There was even a scenario that made me turn off of him. It was an unlikely attitude. Rude. Destroying.

Today, I realized that I don't like him anymore. It's done. I'm over.

My Gift of Goodbye

I USED TO keep on holding on and clinging on to things, thinking they're mine. However, I also knew how to let go... but I rarely use this gift... for I USED TO believe that when I let things and people go out in my life... I can never ever have them back.

Ikaw- unti-unti ka nang lumalabas sa pinto ng buhay ko. Akala mo hindi ko napansin? Nagkakamali ka! I see you in the corner of my eye na patagong umaalis, gusto mo na pala ako iwanan, pero hindi mo magawang magpaalam... kaya ayan ka.... nag-eeskapo--- pero nakikita kita. At masakit makita na, pasimple kang umaalis sa buhay ko. Sana pala hindi nalang kita nilingon habang lihim kang tumatakas. Masakit. Kung alam mo lang. Sana nagpaalam ka nalang ng maayos sa'kin. Sa ganong paraan hindi ako labis na masasaktan. Madali kasi akong kausap... sobrang dali... kung sinabi mo lang sa'kin ng maayos... walang samaan ng loob. At welcome pa kitang palalayain kung pagkakabihag mong maituturing ang pagtigil mo sa buhay ko..... maging masaya ka lang.

Perhaps your part in my story is over... and I really can't make you stay... HOnestly, I wanted to extend our story but there are things in life which are better off when they remain what they ought to be.

Closed curtains na tayo- ika nga. Nakakapanghinayang kasi hindi nagsimula ngunit nagwakas ang pag-ibig na akala ko'y may pag-asa. Nakakatawa isipin, na there was a time, I even begged you to stay... dapat pala hindi ko nalng ginawa yon... and just let things happen.
Sa totoo lang, dinagdagan mo ang trauma ko na pumasok sa relationship... pero ipinapangako ko sa sarili ko na patuloy akong magmamahal.

Our story had a wonderful beginning and a sorrowful ending. Pero salamat dahil at least maaga pa lang... nakilala na kita at nagpakilala ka. You're a lesson for me.
I'm using my gift of goodbye.... I let you go, *******. No strings attached! I know you are not my end.

Just want you to know that I had also an awesome journey with you. Yet, we've reached the point. I'm now taking the other road towards my real destination.
God bless and Goodbye!

*yUmi

Kung ayaw mo, e di 'wag

Nakakainis ka! Bakit ba? Ano bang ginawa ko? Masama bang mahalin ka? Kung ayaw mo e di wag... hindi ko ipagpipilitan ang sarili ko! It's not my loss and will never be my loss! Ikaw ang nawalan hindi ako.

Ang manhid mo! Sobra! Bakit ka ganyan? Alam ko sinasadya mo. I don't deserve this treatment! Alam mo, sana hindi nalang kita nakilala... at alam mo rin ba... na ito ang kauuna-unahang beses sa buhay ko, na may ni-regret akong ginawa o nakilalang tao. Oo. masaya ka na, nasaktan mo ako. Alam mo ang problema sa'yo... you play your cards too safe... I know why... ayaw mo rejection- yun ang reason di ba? Tama ako? Pero bakit? Hindi naman kita nirereject ha. Or you're really that mean to make me fall in love with you... and to hurt me in the end?

Ayoko nang isipin ka. Gusto na kitang limutin... Siguro, this is the time to say goodbye. HIndi ko man masabi sa'yo in person, through fone, through text or even e-mail. Magpapa-alam na ako. HIndi ko nga alam kung mababasa mo 'to eh... or would you even care to visit this site. basta, ayoko na s'yo. Ayoko sa mga taong katulad mo. You're a big liar! Sabi mo, you will stay... but you did not... Ayoko ng makita ka. Pinaiyak mo ako, pero hindi mo alam yon... at kahit kailan, hindi mo malalaman yon- dahil wala kang paki-alam. Ikaw na ang pinakamanhid na taong nakilala ko sa buong buhay ko.

Now, this is truly goodbye!=(

Meeting Cham

I asked Cham to meet me in SM North Edsa. My very purpose of this meeting is to ask her to give him my birthday gift. I knew it's his birthday tomorrow.

We ate. We told stories to each other. She mentioned, that she's about to resign two months from now. I was shocked, oh, not that much, coz a part of me was expec ting like that. I just didn't expect that soon.

I told her, that I was right that things will never be the same.

Getting bored

One.. Two... Three weeks passed. No LET result yet. I'm getting paranoid what the result was. What if I don't pass? What will happen? Will it be the end of the world? NO! It can't be! my mom and dad and I prayed that every saturdays... that God's favor be upon me. Then, it'll result to nothing? No. No. No.

I'm getting bored here at home, waiting for the email message of OD people. I almost have sent all the forwarded mesaages that I receive each day and I think they're getting annoyed of that.
He... does not send any email at all. I always wait here infront of my pc for nothing. I've done my website in myspace and then, nothing. Woh!

The mail

Today, I got the email that Ahia Myke told me that he'll send me after the examination. This is the content:

Subject: Confidential
Message:
Hello, this message is strictly just for your eyes only. I want to be straight w/ you, I dont want to beat around the bush. "Im falling in love with you." The first time I saw you I liked you then after the get together, I admired you. Then, I said to myself, "She is my kind of girl." I am attracted to you coz you are full of life, determination, guts and brain. I am sorry you're shocked about this message, I just cant help it. Actually matagal ko ng gustong i-mail sa yo ito kaso lang nagre-review ka and i dont want to disturb you baka ako pa ang maging dahilan pag bumaba ung score mo kya hinintay ko matapos yung exam mo. I got the courage to say this things to you dahil sa mail na na-forward mo sa kin remember "read alone someone might love you" yung last part kaya ko nasabi sa yo to. But dont worry di pa naman kita liligawan kasi may kailangan pa akong i-build ulit at alam ko rin mag ma-masteral ka pa & i dont want to become an obstacle. I wish all good things for you, I pray so hard that all your dreams do come true. I hope hwag maging dahilan itong nobelang ito para iwasan mo ko o.k right now mag-kaibigan muna tayo and I'll keep it that way para di ka mailang sa kin pero after 2yrs at wala ka pang bf I'll court you (yun naman ay kung papayag ka pero kung hindi that's fine still friend pa rin tayo at di kita PIPILITIN) so see you na lang my friend God bless you.

I smiled after reading the letter. He likes me. Yeah, he does. Flattering in a way, but I really didn't expect. It took me awhile to create my reply. Here it goes:

hi. I hope you're in good condition as you read my response. I was actually expecting a problem of yours to resolve on... yet there seems to be no problem at all. What you've emailed me was a mere reflection of your strength and courage to like and to love. And I admire you for that! Thank you for being honest and courteous and friendly. Thank you as well for waiting to tell me these things in the right time... I'm impressed. Don't worry, nothing will change. I pray that our friendhip will grow more in the sight of God. Let's not bother of the future things, God knows what to do and what will come ahead of us... Things will be revealed in His perfect time.
For now, let's be friends... no worries, i won't change!
By the way, have you prayed about your feelings to God? Hehehe;-)
See you soon,
yUmi

It's nice to know that he likes me. However, I don't seem to like him. I could not imagine myself and him--- together. Besides, as I've mentioned before he's my best's cousin and we are in the same church. I don't know how possible it would be.

LET

I took the test today. I was nervous at first but I tried to calm down myself. There were some easy questions and hard questions. There were questions taken form the review classes. In General it was hard. Oh my, I don't know if I can make it.

"But my faith is in you, Lord."

I even saw Mary, Sabrina, Via and other psych majors of our University. I was unable to see new friends who I have just met in the review classes. I really do hope that we'll all pass the examination.

The result is indefinite. They did not said when it will be released. Gosh, my heart's pumping. I want to pass!!!

When I arrived home, my head was freaking aching. I was hungry and at the same time tired, so tired. My parents gave me hug and smiles cheering that we should celebrate for I've pass! Such a faith!

I have that faith!

Phonecall

I was able to get a hold on line with Ahia Myke, he is my bestfriend's cousin. He mentioned that he'll email me something when my exam is over.

What could it be? Something about his problem of his x-girlfriend? I remember he asked something on what to do and what to say to a girl in a certain situation. I gave him neutral answers. That would be it. I'm sure, its about that and I will be more than willing to help.

But why should wait for nextweek? Fishy!

Final Review Day

After 9 weeks of review classes, I will take the examination next week. Oh God! Help me, Lord. The butterflies are in my stomach again.

Shot when over

A friend of my friend's friend gathered courage perhaps to ip'ed me. Well, we had a good chat. Such a conversationalist. He's an architect in MD.

We ip'ed each other for almost a month before I leave the company. He began to like me. I also began to like him. We went out dating for awhile. I enjoyed his company. I learned how to ride a bus because of him.

For a while my heart is being calmed by his messages. But I don't want to get so close to him. I might find it hard to leave. He knew I was about to resign the day he ip'ed me. Unluckily, things like that really happens.

Well, I must admit that my heart was shot by an arrow... but why when I needed to leave? I don't think I can afford to lose another person. Woh! but that statement was big. Not yet deserving. Erase. Erase. Erase.

Once again, the end is getting near.

Review Classes

I should focus now with my review for LET. It all begun today, Sunday. Yes, I will not be able to go to church every Sunday because of this. I need to go to my beloved University to take the review.

I'm over with my recent resignation. I should concentrate now in this review. If and only if I took the test last year, I will no longer take this burden. It seems a burden to me. Howver, of course, I do want to pass the examination.

Help me, my God!

There's no such thing as perfect in the world

I realized that the saying "There's no such thing as perfect in the world" is indeed proven once again.

Comparing my two recent jobs, I came up with pluses and minuses of each. hera are the following.

In ISB, the location and the office was very perfect. In KFC-MD, the HRMD building is too old, seem like when a big wind blow, everything will fly.

In ISB, I have all the resources I need- my own phone, my own pc, I have my own outlook and email add, I had 3 desks, everything in there. In KFC-MD, the phone is shared by the whole team of EWS, I wouldn't have my pc if I did not picked one of the old monitors and cpu's lying in the dirty room and if did not used my charm to ask a guy to install things for me, i even shared my outlook and email address with another person, I didn't even had a place to put my things. In short there was scarcity in everything.

In ISB, there were too many work, I was always pressured from the tasks and by the people around me that needed my service. Plus, I am not well compensated. In KFC-MD, there were very few pressures, and I handled them very well and I felt I receive more than the other.
In ISB, my 2 bosses were extremely bad. I even thought that all bosses are like them. Until, I met my bosses in KFC-MD, there, I realized that not all superiors are bad, there are good ones, or should I say great ones who would handle there people with respect and care. Thanks to S'Ern'z and S' Odj.

Common Denomiator of both companies? I did find friends. Lasting friends. Beautiful friendships that bloomed.

Conclusion: There's nothing perfect, something will always lack. Thus, it is something to be accepted.

"A man should turn his back in order to lead an orchestra." - S'Ernz

"Like the dominoes, if one will fall, the rest shall follow."- Will

Last day in KFC-MD

It's my final day yesterday in the office. It seemed noisy outside but quiet inside. I prepared merienda for my despedida in HRMD, as usual, we had a small gathering in the afternoon, they all gave their final goodbyes to me.

I remember Sir Leonard's message. I just don't know why I remembered it in particular, perhaps it was common? Well, he shared "A thousand journey begins in a single step" - by Confucius.

Before time, I ip'ed him and bid my goodbye. It hurt saying goodbye. I knew things between us will never be the same once I step out of the office. I just told him that, "I will remember the rain, the umbrella and the kiss." He agreed it was something special.

The day became night, we continued celebrating my despedida in Heidz house, there we all ate, drunk, sung, danced. It was a happy time. Picture taking everywhere. Such an awesome night. A night to be fully kept in heart.

I thought it was just that until the girls of OD sung "Farewell". It was a nice song sung by them. My eyes became teary. I wanted to burst but I can't seeing their smiles. I wished that moment lasted and satayed on that forever. But, it is just a moment... in few seconds... the song ended.

My bosses gave their last messages to me. The night ended in a very special song sung by my 2 bosses- S'Ernz and S' Odj... it was "My Way". They sung it nicely. And I swear, whenever I hear this song again, they two will be the people that pop up in my mind.

The night finally ended. Today, as I write this, I'm no longer an employee of KFC-MD/HRMD/OD/EW/ER. Yet, I will always be a part of the family.

5:00 People

For several days, our team takes our break evry 5:00 pm outside the very old building of the HRMD. We gather together, eat together and have small talks, we share things about different views, perspective... healthy conversations with smart people.

I love these breaks, I really do. When I'll be gone, I'll definitely miss these things- the foods, the chat, the people.

Lifeline

Sir Odjie prepared several things for us. It's like a team building but only inside a four-cornered room.

Our team was asked to write our "Lifeline" and indicating each special event in our lives and indicating how we felt each time if we were on our low, medium or high esteems. It was reflected through graphs.

They made theirs. I made mine. I made it sure that I have written all the significant events in my life that had an impact on me starting from my toddler years until this very moment that I'm with the team.

Without hesitations, all of us including our bosses laid our lives. Our happy and sad days, our frustrations, regrets in life... everything scoped by each title we placed in the sheet of paper... a sheet of paper that mean't almost my whole life... the sheet of paper which reminded me of my pasts and which reminded me how I was made today.

I heard their stories first. I was the very last person who laid my life in the circle. My heart beated so fast before I started my first word. Then, when I started out, I spoke simultaneously. I was laughing with my lifelilne and almost crying at the same time. They- I felt how curious they were that moment about me. My life is not that interesting but at that very moment, I felt as if my life is like a book chased by people to be read. All eyes on me. Staring. All ears on me. Listening. I laid my life on these people. I gave them the right to become a part of me. After my speech, it felt great. It's as if I've known them for almost 10 years and vice versa.

"My Lifeline"- I chose to keep it forever and continue processing the my lifeline, reflecting on significant events that occured in my life. It's about my lifestory. Perhaps, if in time, I'll get an amnesia and forget the things in my life... I'll be able to recognize things and and remember events if I will be able to see this "Lifeline". I said it so because it perfectly summarizes almost everything, everything.

Resignation at KFC-MD

I thought it over and over again. I don't like to resign. Yet, I needed to.

My tears fell when I started to computerize my resignation letter. I really don't want to leave but I needed to. I am about to take the LET. I have to sacrifice my work this time, because I have to review before I take the examination. I know I need it.

I'm half-hearted when I submitted my resignation letter. My hands were shaking when I gave it to our boss. I know I'm making another big decision in my life. Decision that I cannot retract anytime. Yet, I have to be firm. I have to be resilient. I have to stand on this. In my mind, I need to pass the exam so I can say that my precious job is worth sacrificing for.

My boss was speechless when he got my letter. I don't know what was in his mind. I know, there's something but I leave it to him. Besides, I'm resigning not becuas eof them or becuase of work, or becaus eof people around me. Nothing's wrong. It's just that I needed to do it for myself.

My decision could be wrong, but I know it's right. For me it is right.

Sadness filled the air. But, this is it! Again, this is it.

HRMD Outing (Bataan)

The other day, we went on an outing. We went in Bataan. I've been in Bataan. There, I remember my thesis days. I did not expect that I even got a cold. My fever was high that night. Ging, Cham and Zhel took care of me. I was touched because of them.

The following day, we swam, gosh. The water was freezing. It even turned us upside-down. I mean it literally. There were big waves who turned us. It hurt when my head bumped a big stone. At first I thought, I was the only one experiencing the shock of waves, but no, even the boys and the rest of the girls were also turned by the waves.

It was a nice time to get to know the rest of HRMD people. Everyone helps together in cooking, cleaning, etc. Many friendships where built and I'm thankful that I met them.

The outing will not be complete without pictures. Well, I really do cherish the times. I love it!

Work Days in KFC-MD

I was able to meet more people this time. In this company the HRMD consists of 60++ employees. There are more than 10 people who work in the Recruitment; more that 10 in the Timekeeping and payroll, 5 or more in the Training. Wow!

Imagine, in my pervious job, our HR consisted only of 6 people, 2 of which are already bosses, 2 are superiors, 1 telephone operator and I work for thw whole Traing, Recruitment and Timekeeping... I'm a superwoman then!

I did write scripts for the role playing. This is for the IR. I managed to learn my job each day. Plus, in this place, I learned the word "PETICS". This is the state wherein employees don't work at all, not because they do not want to work but because there's no work to do.

I like here. People are great. I like my bosses. I feel that i'm really part of teh family.

First Day in KFC-Mister Donut

As usual, I am an early bird. There were no people yet in the HR Department so I got something to read first. Geez! Guess what did I got?

Hmf! I was followed by a monster! No, I'm kidding! I reached a magazine about HR something. There, I read the name of the recent boss as the president of the Association of HR something.Wooo!

How come? Let me question that again. How come? Again, for the third time. How come? She don't even have people skills. She don't know how to control her anger. I bet her term did not last a year.Whew! I was destructed when somebody approached me and ask to com along in the team I was supposed to be with. Then, I went in a small room, it seemed that my room was larger than that room. But in that small room, I didn't know that I was about to meet people with big golden hearts.

The HRMD (that's the way they call it), starts the day with Prayer. Everyone gathers together to pray and share things a little while before starting the day.I was also introduced as new hire. It felt great! They welcomed me. I felt I gained an instant family. I begin to love it.

Our Team is called EWS stands for Employess Welfare Services. It consists of two sub-teams the IR (Industrial Relations Unit) and ER (Employee Relations Unit). In IR, there's Will and Cham. In ER, there's Zhel, Ging and Me. Above us is Sir Ernie and above our boss is Sir Odjie. I was also able to meet him. He's a petite man, perhaps in his 50's. He seemed soft-spoken but well respected.

I don't know yet my tasks,,, I hope I'll be able to adjust immediately.

Getting my Second Job

The HR Personnel of KFC-Mister Donut called me. I got the slot!

I got the position as Employee Relations Assistant. Well, that position is still part of the HR. At least, there is a specification of the job. Yeba! Just the way I wanted.

I'll start on the 18th of February.

Final Interview in KFC-MD

I was asked to dropped by in Ramcar for a Final Interview. A man nicely dressed interviewed me. He asked me questions which I answered so well. Of course I'll answer it well, I used to interview people just a cople of months ago, who would not get used to it?

I think he likes me. But he said, he was still about to interviw another one. Woh, let's see who gets the ball.

Applying Time

Now, I've decided to finally apply. I applied in Ramcar, particularly in KFC-Mister Donut Philippines. I took the exams and interview so fast. It's getting positive results because the HR Personnel seemed so interested to hire me.

I'll just wait for her call. In a day or two, I know I'll have the job!

Thank you, Lord!

New year 2005

Happy New year! It's a brand new Year!

My cousins fill my day. I don't get bored at home. I actually enjoy staying at home. At least I can watch my favorite TV shows, I can sleep anytime I want, I can talk to my friends as long as I like, I can surf the net till I surrender. I have the time in my hands. It feels so great.

What are my plans this this year? Oh well, 1.) I need to get a job- I don't want to work in Makati any longer and work for a small amount with so many tasks to do. I would like to concentrate on certain thing. For example, if I will handle recruitment, I just wanted to be assigned in recruitment- no training, no timekeeping. But oh, I don't to be asisgned in the recruitment anyway! It makes me insane. 2.) I need to take the Liscensure Examination for Teachers- my classmates took it last 2004, I was left behind because I wanted to rest for awhile that time. Oh! Time is gold! I need it so I'd become fully professional. 3.) I want to start my Master's Degree- I'm still confused of what to take but I want to start as early as now. 4.) I want to get a Driver's liscence- yeah, I should get it before I forget my driving skills.
Okay, so these are the things. I should accomplish this things this year. Help me Lord!