Christmas 2004

It's Christmas Day! I feel free at last.

I wonder if my bestfriend went in the office today.

Why should I care? I'm not going there anyway.

Not anymore.

I'm happy this Christmas, though I no longer have a work.

Anyway, I always belive that when God closes a door, He opens a window!

Last Day in ISB

Finally, I'm saying goodbye. This is my last day in ISB.

Today, is not much of work... well, it's the 24th of December and everyone is celebrating before New Year's Eve. Food flooded almost everywhere. Yummy!

I talked to Maia and Bing and said my goodbye. Of course, I was still the humble person even if they humiliated me from the day I started. But at the back of my mind, "Someday, if I become a boss, I will not become like you. I will become good and loved."

Well, at least there are things that I learned from them. First, I learned the value of time. Second, I learned to stretch my patience. Third, I learned a lot of things especially about the recruitment procedure, I know this have equipped me for my next job.

That four months was not easy, it really wasn't. If you only know how hard my experience was... you will not just cry a river like I did, you will cry an ocean. It came to teh point that I lost my self-respect. I was physically, mentally, financially and emotionally hurt by people who do not mean a single thing to me.

Before I left, I was able to bid my goodbye to my friends from different departments. Ronald D. (my crush) also bid goodbye and gave me cake as a christmas gift. I saw the sadness in his eyes when he stared at me before I left. That moment, I wanted to stay. I wanted to hug him. Yet, I can't.

I'm happy that at least my friends cared for me like Sha-Sha, Megs, Sally, Ronald, Ted, Jun of course, my Best. They all wished me well.

So glad, to finally leave.The feeling is relieving, soothing, relaxing.

Fin'lly!

Seem so near yet so far

I'm counting my remaining days in ISB. I'm making the most out of every moment. I enjoy the company of my workmates, without them, I could really not stay even just for a month in this company. Goodthing, God still fills what I need. I needed friends... and that I have. The end is near, but it seems so far. Each minute that I staty in the office seems hours, each hours seem days, each day seem months... Can't wait to go.

Well, at least I was able to master my work before leaving. But, never a day my freaking bosses have been good to me. Damn. She's dangerous. Sour. Harh. Rotten. I think she's insane. Perhaps, her soul is set on fire even now, even now that she's not yet dying. Sure she'll go to hell. No doubt. That's how hurtful she is.

My parents, well at least told me that it's my decision. Of course it is. I don't want to stay and work in hell. For God sake! This job is not worth of my service. They should find other person who will they fool around and hurt emotionally.
I'm over them.

I'm over

I'm submitting my resignation letter today. I finally made a decision. I don't want to stay any longer. I can't manage to smile any longer seeing the faces of my bosses who thinks they are God.

Maia, asked me if I'm sure about it. I firmly said yes. Bing did not want to sign that single piece of paper but no matter what she do, I'm filing it. I resign.

I don't want to stay. I want to get out of that hell.

Immediate.

I'm losing myself

It's getting hard and my bosses are getting harsh. Who do they think they are? God? A perfect God? NO, they're not, they're evils, bad evils pushing me to the ends.

I hate my bosses. As if my workload is compensated by my salary. Do they know who they are stepping down. Gosh, I'm losing myself, I'm losing my self-respect, my efficiciency, losing all te urge to do better.

I try to make each day to the best that I can, I don't even have a single time for my self... I'm almost giving all for this job, and then what?

I am the one incharge of almost all the recruitment process- from calling the applicants, administering the test, checking the exams, setting interviews, I'm the one who creates all the reports for recruitment, all reports for the timekeeping... as if I have 10 hands and 5 bodies. Then, those big bosses would just shut me like that, as if I do nothing? Damn them! What if we exchange places? At least they'll be able to understand how I feel.
I feel humiliated each day, I feel corrupted, I am losing myself.

Now, I understand why Marge left the company and left all her work to me... If I only knew, I would have not accepted this offer.

Goodthing, I got friends in here from differnt departments, and they all agree how bad my boss is. I'm sure nobody will be able to stay in her hands that long. She's the most bad person I ever met.

Lord, help me get through this. I'm really losing myself.

After long months of vacation, after so many job applications, this is it! I was able to land on a job as an HR Personnel, working particularly in the Recruitment and Training. Well, my desire of becoming an HR Manager is on its way!
It's my first day today at work. I got the popsition in Insular Savings Bank. Woh! That's big, ayt? Besides, I will also be able to see my bestfriend Ahia Jason---. Imagine, I have my best in my first job, that's really great. he's assigned in the Credit Department just across the HR Department.

I was able to meet my immediate boss, Maia, our big boss, Bing and my new workmates Sally and Megs. Well, it really feels good. But I got nervous and before I got in the office, there were butterflies in my stomach.

I hope this job perfectly fits me, I really want this. Thank you, Lord for blessing me!
-yUmi

Graduation Day

Hours from now, ga-graduate nako, kso d ko pa ma-feel. Ewan ba!

Yesterday morning, Recognition ng mga Graduate Awardees... and I was one of them.

I graduated Cum Laude, ang saya d ba?! Kaso prang may kulang. I don't know what! Basta, thank you pa rin, Lord!

Yesterday afternoon, Baccalaureate... Grabe... naka-toga na kami! Iba ung feeling! But I can't exactly define how and what is it... basta ganon!

And later afternoon, marks the new beginnning of my life... My life would certainly change forever! But I acknowledge my Lord and my God in everything that I have accomplished.

Of course, as well as my reponsible, ever-caring, ever-loving and ever-supportive parents who gave everything to me!

To my mentors, professors and teachers, to my friends, classmates and colleagues in college, you taught me so many things in this existence!

To all of you, thank you, thank you, thank you so much! Thank you for filling my life and becoming a part of my whole!

My memories wid you are my passes in the real world!

This is Rachelle Villanoche Mosquera
Batch 2003-2004
Philippine Normal University
Bachelor of Science in Psychology
Major in Guidance and counseling Stream (Cum Laude)
Now, signing off!!!