Friday, May 27, 2005

5:00 People

For several days, our team takes our break evry 5:00 pm outside the very old building of the HRMD. We gather together, eat together and have small talks, we share things about different views, perspective... healthy conversations with smart people.


I love these breaks, I really do. When I'll be gone, I'll definitely miss these things- the foods, the chat, the people.

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

Lifeline

Sir Odjie prepared several things for us. It's like a team building but only inside a four-cornered room.

Our team was asked to write our "Lifeline" and indicating each special event in our lives and indicating how we felt each time if we were on our low, medium or high esteems. It was reflected through graphs.

They made theirs. I made mine. I made it sure that I have written all the significant events in my life that had an impact on me starting from my toddler years until this very moment that I'm with the team.

Without hesitations, all of us including our bosses laid our lives. Our happy and sad days, our frustrations, regrets in life... everything scoped by each title we placed in the sheet of paper... a sheet of paper that mean't almost my whole life... the sheet of paper which reminded me of my pasts and which reminded me how I was made today.

I heard their stories first. I was the very last person who laid my life in the circle. My heart beated so fast before I started my first word. Then, when I started out, I spoke simultaneously. I was laughing with my lifelilne and almost crying at the same time. They- I felt how curious they were that moment about me. My life is not that interesting but at that very moment, I felt as if my life is like a book chased by people to be read. All eyes on me. Staring. All ears on me. Listening. I laid my life on these people. I gave them the right to become a part of me. After my speech, it felt great. It's as if I've known them for almost 10 years and vice versa.

"My Lifeline"- I chose to keep it forever and continue processing the my lifeline, reflecting on significant events that occured in my life. It's about my lifestory. Perhaps, if in time, I'll get an amnesia and forget the things in my life... I'll be able to recognize things and and remember events if I will be able to see this "Lifeline". I said it so because it perfectly summarizes almost everything, everything.

Friday, May 13, 2005

Resignation at KFC-MD

I thought it over and over again. I don't like to resign. Yet, I needed to.

My tears fell when I started to computerize my resignation letter. I really don't want to leave but I needed to. I am about to take the LET. I have to sacrifice my work this time, because I have to review before I take the examination. I know I need it.

I'm half-hearted when I submitted my resignation letter. My hands were shaking when I gave it to our boss. I know I'm making another big decision in my life. Decision that I cannot retract anytime. Yet, I have to be firm. I have to be resilient. I have to stand on this. In my mind, I need to pass the exam so I can say that my precious job is worth sacrificing for.

My boss was speechless when he got my letter. I don't know what was in his mind. I know, there's something but I leave it to him. Besides, I'm resigning not becuas eof them or becuase of work, or becaus eof people around me. Nothing's wrong. It's just that I needed to do it for myself.

My decision could be wrong, but I know it's right. For me it is right.

Sadness filled the air. But, this is it! Again, this is it.

Monday, May 9, 2005

HRMD Outing (Bataan)

The other day, we went on an outing. We went in Bataan. I've been in Bataan. There, I remember my thesis days. I did not expect that I even got a cold. My fever was high that night. Ging, Cham and Zhel took care of me. I was touched because of them.

The following day, we swam, gosh. The water was freezing. It even turned us upside-down. I mean it literally. There were big waves who turned us. It hurt when my head bumped a big stone. At first I thought, I was the only one experiencing the shock of waves, but no, even the boys and the rest of the girls were also turned by the waves.

It was a nice time to get to know the rest of HRMD people. Everyone helps together in cooking, cleaning, etc. Many friendships where built and I'm thankful that I met them.

The outing will not be complete without pictures. Well, I really do cherish the times. I love it!