Thursday, August 30, 2007

My Promise to God

Today, I finally gave God all the Glory, all the honor, all the praises, all the worship and all the thanksgiving in my life.

I shared my "First Life Testimony" at church which lasted for one and a half hour.
It felt great. I laid cups of tears during my moment while laying to the elders of our church how God moved and worked in my life.

First off, I gave the bible verse Proverbs 19:21 which states, "Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is God's purpose that will prevail."

Then I went on relating all the things that happened, chapter by chapter, event by event, feeling by feeling.

I told them that I'm aware that they could be bored with everything that I'm narrating but I didn't care at all, I simply care about pleasing God that moment and to glorify Him in my life.
I gave 3 things that makes your prayer requests answered. The following are:

1. Confess your weaknesses to significant people who you don't want to know what really happened. In my case, I confessed my failure to my Professor in College before I took the test.

2. Pray that particular prayer item together with the family often.

3. Write your inner desires and prayers in a tablet says the bible. So it shall come to pass. In my case, I wrote it in a piece of paper, and here in my website.=))

Thursday, August 23, 2007

Confirmation

After office hours, I called the GAO to confirm my status. The lady on the line, made me wait for about three minutes.

When she came back on line, she spoke, "Ma'am, confirmed po kayo. Pumunta nalang kayo dito bukas."

I was stucked to the word, "confirmed"- I associated it with the words accept, approve, pass, authenticate, qualify. When I heard that, there was a sudden joy in my heart which I haven't felt for years. My tears wanted to fall but I can't because of the bliss that I feel at that very moment.
Thank you, Lord for answering my prayers.

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

Interview in De La Salle

I was on leave today. This leave date has been postponed for almost a week because classes in school were suspended.

I took the route to MRT station towards DLSU, quite a long travel but it's better at least I wouldn't need to bump up the day's traffic in Quirino Highway.

I wore a green longsleeves and black slacks, I even bought those clothings last week in preparation for this interview. It was too fit in me, and it makes me think and feel to burn little fats from my body.

When I got in the place, I looked for a powder room first to freshen myself. It took me 10 minutes to do that.

Then I proceeded in the exact room I was told to go. I finally met the secretary whom I just heard the voice yesterday. I filled out something, sat for a minute and Whola! My interview happened few more seconds.

I greeted the Interviewee before I entered the room. I nicely carried myself, removed all my tensions and finally sat in the "hotchair" appropraitely.

The interviewee begun to asked me, "What are you doing now?"

I bravely answered, "I work as a CSR in a Call Center in Makati."

He inquired, "How would that be related with the course you want to take?"

I immediately and politely claimed, "I graduated with the Degree of Bachelor's of Science in Psychology Major in Guidance and Counseling Stream. I believe Sped is very much related with my course. Besides, I previously worked with AMA Computer University as a part-time College Instructor. I handled Psychology and Sociology subjects.

"So why did you left teaching?" Dr. Borromeo wanted me to probe.

"I left teaching for practical reasons. I wasn't receiving enough compensation that time so I needed to look for a job that I will be able to earn more and enough money so I can study in the Graduate Studies."

I was trying to read Dr. Borommeo's mind, after I answered those things, he wrote something on my credentials. Later on he said.

"Okay, you'll have to take these...'' and blah, blah, blah.

I positively answered, "Oh! that's great, that would be nice."

He explained, "Once you" blah, blah, blah.

"Sure that would be fine.", I excitedly said.

"Then, you may also enroll this subject." he added.

"Great. That's great." that's all I said, I was somehow shocked and I wanted to scream at the top of my voice when he I heard him say, "enroll". For me, it was my "wordclue" if I was able to make it. I was so excited and I can't help smiling that time.

Then, I inquired him, "Is there anything else, Sir?". In my mind, ("Ask me more, I want more questions.") I prepared for two hours, freshen myself for 10 mins before I went in this room... then this interview haven't last five minutes?").

"No more. You just have to call the Admissions Office in the afternoon."

"Okay, thank you, Sir. Bye."

My head ached, I prepared for two hours, freshen myself for 10 mins before I went in that room... then the interview didn't last even five minutes. Geez!

Got off the room and thanked the Lord, My God!

I went out of the building, happy and excited. That was it. Positive. Brilliant. Blessed!

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

Scheduling of Interview

Finally, after long vacation of school due to the typhoon- I was able to call the Department's Secretary and was able to set the interview. The interview has been set tomorrow.

Time: 11:00 am
Date: August 22, 2007
Place: Rm 110, Gonzalez Building
Interviewee: Dr. Roberto Borommeo

Friday, August 10, 2007

Pananalig

"3:30 am, bangon na! Maligo na at maghanda sa huling araw ng pagpasok sa trabaho." ito ang mga nasa isip ko.

Nung paalis nako at ihahatid na ni Papa, "Hay, eto na ang araw na pinakahihintay ko, teka, makuha nga yung php 50 na pamasahe ko". Bag bukas ng pitaka, pagulat kong nasabi, "may extra money ako, pano na-doble 'to? ang alam ko, eto nalang ang pera ko... hmmm". Bigla akong napangiti, at bigla kong nasabi na "Pasado ako sa exam". Nagpabango ako agad, pumasok sa kwarto kung san natutulog sina mama at sinabi ko sa kanya ng may halong excitement, "Ma, pasado nako sa test!". Nagising siya ng nakangiti, nagtanong na, "Talaga anak, pano mo nalaman?". "Basta lang, pasado, ako!" sabay halik sa pingi nya upang magpa-alam. Napangiti na lamnag siya at agad na bumalik sa pagkakahiga at natulog muli matapos kong bulabugin ng kay aga. Pagkalabas ko ng kwarto, nasabi ko sa sarili kong "It's gonna be a great day, ibubuhos ni Lord yung blessing nya sa akin!". Positive Thinking! Oo naman. Dapat lang. Hnaggang sa ihatid ako ng aking Papa, hanggang sa makasakay ng bus, ng jeep at tuuluyang makarating sa Exportbank Plaza.;

Sa loob-loob ko, "Isang napakagandang araw nito". Pag-upo ko, ginawa ko na ang mga routines sa umaga, pero hindi ako makapag-log-in ng tama, walang lumalabas na Macro sa H drive ko, paulit ulit nakong nag-restart ng pc. Mga ilang sandali ang lumipas, dumating na ang mga kasama ko, hindi pa rin ako nakaklog ng tama. Maya-maya pa ay tinannonog ako ng ka-opisina ko kung kamusta na yung resulta nung exam. Tinugon ko siyang ganito, "Interview ko na". "E di pasado ka na?", muli nyang tanong, "Wala pa ang result, mamaya ko pa lang malalaman" aang sagot ko. "E pano mo nalaman na pasado ka kung wala pang result?" tanong nung isa naming kasamahan, "Positive Thinking.", ang tugon ko, "Positive thinking lang yan, alam ko pasado na ako." bukod dun, tinugon ko siya sa aking isip, "that's what I call FAITH- something not see but the evidence of things I hope for!". Ngunit diko na yun binulalas, hindi ko namna na dapat sagutin pa eh. It's enough for me that God knows I have this Faith, claiming what I should have this time, as he have promised.

Yeah Faith, later on, bigla ko nalang nasabi, "ayan may macros nako nito.", maya-maya nga, lumabas na nag macros ko... yun nga ang faith, diko naman talaga alam kung lalabas ang macro ko nung sinabi kong lalabas yon eh, pero lumabas nga ang macro ko, di ba faith yon? Ang galing! lahat ng sabihin ko natutupad.

Bukod sa extra money ko for today, hindi ko na din kinakilangan magbayad para sa lunch ko, kasi nilibre ako ni Jan Paul, hahah, hinde, actually, may utang siya sa akin na lunch kaya, turn nya naman ngayon. Ang galing, hindi ko na kinailangn pang magbayad today. Blessing, di ba?!
Ang galing-galing talaga, I feel so blessed kahit diko pa nakikita yung blessing na hinahanap ko, alam ko answred prayer na ako.

Nung hapon, dumating yung isa naming kasamahan, may dalang chocolates, another blessing?! Heheh, pero cyempre, shinare ko naman din kay Jan Paul yung chocolate na bigay sakin.;)
Tapos, nung nag-log-out ako sa IROZ, ang galing, isang beses lang ako nag-punch, okay na agad, pero hindi yun ganon nung mga nakaraang araw, laging, inaabot na ako ng mga 3:08, bago maka-log-out.

Nung nakasakay nako sa jeep, tumawa na si Hone at binungad anko ng pagbati, "Congatulations, Sweet?", si ko maitagio ang ngiti ko nung marining ko ung congratulations, pakiramdam ko, daig ko pa ang nanalo sa miss universe, hindi ko pa namna nakikita yung hanap ko, pero, labis na ang saya ko, yun ang FAITH.

Mabilis ang byahe sa MRT. Nung nasa Fx nako, bigla nalang umulan, nababsaa ko ang isip ng ibang tao, tungkol sa ulan... ang iba ay masaya, ang iba ay nag-aalala kasi wal silang dlang payong, ang iba ay nayayamot, ang iba parnag sinira ng ulan ang araw nila. Hay, ewan ba... ako,,, nung umulan, nakangiti ako... parang sinansabi sakin ng Diyos na "Hayan ang mga pagpapala ko sa iyo, anak, tanggapin mo, nais kong maging masaya ka!". Kaya naman ang ngiti ko, ngiti kung ngiti. Kahit sa likod ako ng tricycle sumakay, kahit malakas ang hangin at malakas ang ulan, okay lang, alam ko namang punagpala ako eh.

Pagkadating ko ng bahay, nilapag ko lnag ang gamit ko, nagpunas saglit ang kinuha nag telepono, tumawag nako sa GAO ng DLSU. Narining ko ang pamilyar na boses ng babe na siyang nag-asikaso din sakin noon nung nagsubmit ako ng requirements. Tinanong ko yung tungkol sa result, binigay ko ang petsa kung kelan ako kumuha ng exam, sabi nya, sa Lunes daw tumawag ako dun sa departamento para malaman ang schedule nung interview. Pgakatapos ay bigla nalang siyang nagpaalam at binaba nag telepono.

'Malabo, hindi ko naintindihan yung sinabi nya", sabi ko sa sarili ko, kaya naman, tumawag ulit ako at nilinaw ang mga bagay-bagy kay Ma'am. Ang sabi nya, part ng process ang interview, pagkatapos ng interview tsaka lang malalaman kung pwedeng ng mag-enroll. Pagkatapos nya i-explain, nauunawaan ko na sa pagkaktaong yaon. Pagkababa ko ng telepono, nasabi ko nalnag, "pasado na ako dun!" Yun ang Faith o pananampalataya. Diko pa din nakita o nalman ang tunay na resulta, pero nananalig ako na okay na ang lahat.

Salamat, Lord! Maghahanda na ako para sa interview. Isang kakaibang araw, ang lahat ng naiisin ng aking puso ay naibigay na sa araw na ito.

Result of DLSU Graduate Studies Entrance Examination

I gathered enough strength and courage to call the GAO of DLSU and find out the Entrance Exam's Result right after I got home from office.

When I talked to the admin assistant, she said that the exam's result is confidential and I needed to schedule first an interview by Monday. Five days after the interview, she said that it's the only time to confirm if a student is qualified to enter the Graduate Studies.

Right after the conversation, I was greatly relieved!;)

Thank you, Lord! I'm claiming Your glory!

Thursday, August 9, 2007

Today

Today is the day set for me to know.
The day I'm long waiting, 12 days ago.
This day will make or break me
Neither, I decide to remain my faith
May it turn good or bad,
In favor for me or not,
I know, I'm in the right hands of God.
..chug, chug. ..
...chug, chug...
...chug, chug...
My heart beats
Faster and faster, it goes.
A part of me says, stop worrying and fretting inside.
Yet another part questions, "what if's?"
Yes, I have surrendered
... and now I simply have to trust God.

Wednesday, August 8, 2007

Untitled

One day to go... I'll be knowing exactly what will be the exam's result. Only one thing shall happen it's either I pass or I pass! Oh, you might think I'm overacting on this issue... well, think what you want. I'm just exercising my faith and I'm pretty sure that there's nothing wrong about that, eh?!

My heart beats so fast though I know I'll pass. Waiting period makes it hard for me, as it prolongs my agony. It's like it's holding my lungs and pumping it now and then which makes it hard for me to breathe. I'm getting nervous. Getting scared. But thinking it over, I should not, as I have given God all my fears and I have let Him do want He wants to do in my life, as He is God and He knows what should or should not happen in my life, better as I know.
I was actually at peace but the thought that the result is already released, can't help it... I'm disturbed by the silence here in the office, with all alone the ticking of the keyboards, no other noice, no voices.

Lord, please take away these doubtful feelings and fears that I have. I know you've answered my prayer, long before time. Give me strength, give me peace. Take my heart at rest and let me remember the wondrous things You've bestowed in my life for 23 years... remind me that my life is not about me... that my life is about You.

... Hold me close
Let your love surround me
Bring me near, draw me to your sight.
And as a wait, I'll rise up like an eagle.
And I will soar with You, Your spirit leads me on
By the power of Your love...
I entrust everything about my life, to YOU, My God!

Tuesday, August 7, 2007

Monday, August 6, 2007

God's blessing!

Lord, thank you for letting me pass the Entrance test! Thank you for letting me survive. amidst of all the things that happened. You just really wanted me to have the best that you could ever give! You are indeed marvelous, beyond words, beyond time!

Saturday, August 4, 2007

Ice Monsters

Aimee, Esther and I went out today to chill out. We were only three but we enjoyed so well ourselves, we took pictures, lotsa pictures!










Friday, August 3, 2007

Ouija

Myke and I watched "Ouija" today. Though he's not fond of watching Filipino horror films, I made him agree to watch it.

It was full of suspense and thrill. There were scenes that made me scream and he laughed at me and simply surround me with his broad arms. The story has an open-ended ending. He said he liked it, anyway because the crowd is participative and funny... and as long as I'm with him.
Well of course, he should or else!;)

Wednesday, August 1, 2007

Quality Time

Arriving home from tedious work, I was surprised by my Dad. He said we'll watch a film tonight with Mom just right after the rice is cooked. The idea of spending time with them is so nice that I can't wait to see what will happen in the next few hours.

Amazed by the book I'm currently reading ("Rich Dad, Poor Dad"), I caught a conversation with my Dad regarding businesses and getting rich, I told him that I feel oneday, I'm going to be rich.;) I was absorbing the book too much, perhaps!

The rice got cooked. We left. I enjoyed the ride and converse with my Dad towards my Mom's school. I know we're spending a quality time together, which seldom happens because we're all busy in our jobs.

After picking up the light of our household, we then went in SM Fairview, bought foods and tickets. They chose to watch the movie "Sinking of Japan".Before we entered the movie house, we have not realized that Japanese don't speak in English until we were inside and heard Niponggo language. Meaning, we'll be reading the subtitle of the whole entire movie. Though, we were just right on time, I felt quite disappointed, thinking that I'll just get bored inside the movie house because I wouldn't be able to understand the movie nor see the subtitle because of the fact that I'm a legally blind person. So I decided, that I'll just enjoy the burger and fries and the popcorn inside even without understanding the film, at least I'm with my most loving parents and we're spending great time together.

Few scenes after we arrived, the movie finally got my attention. I then, forced my eyes to be able to see and read the subtitle flashed. It was a story about the country Japan that will sink in less than a year. It showed many lives that died in quakes from different areas in Japan. The government did all their best to at least save many lives that they can by sending the Japanese people in other countries such as France, US and China and they were about to do something else to save the remaining parts of the country by means of using an atomic bomb or something. I then realized that we have not chosen a wrong film. As the story unfolds, I enjoyed every single emotion that I was able to feel. I was able to relate in the story that God uses the things we least like to serve our purpose in living. This was shed to me by one of the characters who planned other things for himself and can start anew life in other country but ended sacrifing his life for the sake of the people dear to him and of the remaining lives. -The film taught me that "Some things mean more than life." Family is one. Purpose is another.

It just feel so great to learn something new again. Wonderful Day. Great movie. Perfect Time.