Post Celebration of KKB Anniversary

Yesternight, we gather together, prayed, mingled with each other, played, sung, danced, laughed, ate and a lot more. There were many activities prepared. The event was fun.
For me, the most interesting part is when I spent little but quality time with Myke. It was our first time to be together after our recent dating. Thus, I can't help my self singing the song "I Will".

Who knows how long I've loved you?

You know I love you still

Will I wait a lonely lifetime?

If you want me to, I will

For (and) if I ever saw you

I didn't catch your name

But it never really mattered

I will always feel the same

Love you forever and forever

Love you with all my heart

Love you whenever we're together

Love you when we're apart

And when at last I find you

Your song will fill the air

Sing it loud so I can hear you

Make it easy to be near you

For (and) the things you do endear you to me

You know I will...I will...

Love you forever and forever

Love you with all my heart

Love you whenever we're together

Love you when we're apart

And when at last I find you

Your song will fill the air

Sing it loud so I can hear you

Make it easy to be near you

For (and) the things you do endear you to me

Oh, you know I will

I shared some special moments with Myke when we brushed out teeth together after the dinner, when I leaned on him and carressed his hair while we're sitting back to back. I find it sweet. Romantic. Appealing. Joy. Peace. Hope. Love.

On our way out to the place, all the KKB's walked to home. i wanted him to walk beside me. But we were unable to walked togetehr because the other KKB members held me and others held him. Geez! That was our momnet why did they stole it form us?

I was about to cross the street. But I realized his cellfone and wallet are in my bag. There! I got the chance to talk to him, finally. BUt, he walked to fast. I was calling his name. he can't hear me. I run. I really felt I should return those things to him that moment or else... or else... I don't know.

At last, he heard me. But before I say a word, I stopped, tried to catch my breath. He was stared at me. Then, I gave his things. I told him that I ran to catch him and to catch my breath, no, to return those things. The rest was history.

I went home excited to talk to him and to text him. The last thing I remember he said, "You are now my priority."I. Becoming a priority of someone? I got flattered. Mac never prioritized me. Ryan did. but I did not want him to do so. Now, this man is telling me that Iam his priority. That's a big statement. he needs to prove that one.

Later on... I slept.

KKB Anniversary

Later, in the evening, we'll celebrate the JIL SP9's KKB Anniversary in Zoe. I know he'll come with us. It's a great time to mingle with the KKBs and get to know Myke as well.
Can't wait.

Application in AMA

After failing the GCAT, I took chances to apply for work in a school setting this time in the Tertiary level. It doesn't matter if I don't have a masteral unit yet. I just feel good about this. I had the feeling that I'll get the job.

I went in AMA Computer University to apply the other day. Whoala! Just after an examination and an interview. They called me once again today for a demo-teaching. I did what was asked. I prepared "Erik Erikson's Theory of Development" as my topic

I didn't had many butterflies in the stomach this time. After the demo, I felt great. The professors who watched my demo were speechless I guess on the way I delivered my topic about Psychology. It so happened that one of them, amazingly knows me... as if he had met me. But, nay, I haven't really talked to him even once. He knows my mom and I was surprised in the turn of events. Gotta have colleagues immediately, huh?!

I was asked to start immediately by next Wednesday. My schedule would be every MWF. Wow, it's amazing! Imagine, I don't even have any master's unit but hey, I'm teaching in the collegiate level! Such a blessing!

Indeed, when "God closes a door, He opens a window."

When it rain, it pours

It's really true that when God bless you, He blesses you through and through.

God is so good to me. He showers me with overflowing blessings that I almost cannot contain. I wanna shout and inform the world how great HE is!

Sometimes, I think that I am not worthy of all these things and I even want to ask God why he's blessing me too much but I won't dare do so I will never question God.

I know and I believe in my heart that He has so many plans for me and a lot more is yet to come.

"Lord, I know your ways are higher than mine. I'll follow your leading and trust your desire!"

Conversations

I had several wonderful conversations this day. I had conversations with several significant people in my life. People who are distant to me. People whom I consider special. It's really nice to know that even though time and distance separates us apart they are all still there. I miss them so much!

I was able to have a converse with someone I treat special I just don't know if he feels the same way I'm not expecting but I'm hoping somehow. He made my day! I also had a great time with my churchmates it was like a heavenly moment with them. And of course, my former officemates whom I consider my next family gave their regards. I miss them a lot! I miss spending time and making memories with them. And of course, I had a wonderful conversation with my close friend in college.Jeslie, my dear sister, Oh my! I felt so glad to catch you online. My heart wanted to leap out of joy the short moment that we'e been together. I miss our friendship. Though I know, that it would always be there, I miss your company. I miss the days that we're together. The days we crammed, the days we eat fries and floats in Mc Donalds. The days we talked about our heartaches and heartbreaks. The days that we would laugh and cry together. The days we shared our dreams. The days we achieve some of the dreams. Even the day we had a cold fight. I miss our college days. I miss the days of our lives. I have never told you but I'm so glad that you became a part of my favorite journey. I know someday, we will be able to have the worthy and deserving man of our lives, the one who will love us unconditionally. Let's just be patient enough, I know we will! God moves in mysterious ways! After all the years we've been together, ngayon lang yata ako mag-thank you say, salamat talaga ha. I may sound so dramatic and sentimental right now but I don't care this is what I feel. Thank you, sis!

And to those who are reading this blog- thanks for the time. I'm glad to share a part of my life with you guys!

"We're never getting younger but we are getting wiser!"

First Failure

Today, I learned that I failed the GCAT. I can no longer take my Master's in our School. It gloomed the moment I learned that I failed. It's my first failure. I didn't know how to console my heart.

Until I visited my EWS Family, I brought a cake for them and told nothing about the result. For the first time I kept it on my own. I did not stayed long because they're almost done with their luch. It's just nice to see them again.

I had a scheduled date today, I met Ahia Myke in SM. It's our first date after long and undending converstaions at night, we've finally decided to take the next step... dating. I told him that I failed. But it was not that hurtful at all. I still managed to smile, perhaps because he was there. Well, I don't care. It hurts when I do. I just think of it as a challenge. We watched "The Legend of Zorro". Of course, we enjoyed the movie.

I began to notice his beautiful little eyes, well, because he's chinese. He's a real gentleman. I like him... a LOT now!

Ordinary day. Again, left alone. Mind occupied. Waiting something inside. Want to hear the gentle and soothing voice of a man. Mind from nowhere.

Ring... Ring... it was the phone. I walked towards where it is and answered, "Hello? Oh? Hah? Talaga!" then I felt my mind smiled. I felt I wanted to shout. I felt happy. I get backed to the person on line and asked, "E, ikaw? Ha? Bakit?." Silence. "Hay! Sayang. Ok ka lang? Promise ha, ok ka lang?! OO naman no, tawag ka pa din minsan ha?Ok. Babye. Thank you!"

Cellphone beeping. 1 Message Received. Open. Papa. "Nak, pasado ka sa exam."

I smiled. Chose reply. "Opo, thank you po."

I passed the LET. Next thing on my mind- Newspaper! I will buy a newspaper and see with my own eyes, my name listed.

I jumped and said, "Thank you, Lord, thank you!"

"Truly, God answer our prayers in HIS perfect time. He may answer YES, NO or WAIT. This prayer item of mine... GOD answered YES. Thank you, Lord. I bring back to you all the praise and glory"

JIL Anniversary 2005

I'll see Myke in Luneta in the JIL Anniversary. I'll be going with my dad and mom but I hope to see him there.

Looking around. Being conscious he's there. To the left. To the right. Maybe infront. He might be at the back. I still can't see him. Till, I saw my churchmates. I saw my bestfriend. I smile at my best. Yet, the perosn I was looking was was not there. Is he really not there. Oh no, he's really not.

I looked around again. Until my world stopped when my best told me that he's going to meet his cousin Ahia Myke somewhere because he can't find us... because he can't find me? He went. My heart's pumping. Beating. Terrible. Do I look alright? Do I look great? He should see me at my best. Or else. Or else. Nah!

I'm listening to the sounds of the wind. Carefully listening to his footsteps. however, I hear a lot of people wlking around, laughing, speaking. Sounds around me. High volume of microphone. Cheers. Everything. Amidst of everything, I can feel he's getting near me... nearer and nearer... he seemed.

Until, I was sure about he's really there. But, I did not looked. I did not raised my head and try to find where I can feel him. I wanted him to look at me first. I know he was staring so. But, but, but, my moment was destructed when I heard a squeaky voice of a girl. I don't like it. I don't want her. I wanted him.

My best seated near me. I was not sure if Myke seated beside us. But I can feel him. It's magic when you begin to feel people near you even without seeing them near you, isn't it?

Onething, I wanted... I wanted him to notice me. So I stood up and ask my Best if we could buy something. I ended up going with Gerald, my best's brother. I knew he noticed me and I knew he wanted inside to join us. Nay, he didn't

We got back. I heard one moment that my mom and dad spoke with him. I smiled knowing that. It carressed my heart. It gave me peace. It gave me joy.

I wanted him to join us to go home. Yet, he did not joined us. He was with his sister and the girl I didn't like him to be with. I got irritated. I was sad.

Yet, happy still since I got hold of my bestfriend. We haven't talked for sometime, since he married, since I left ISB. We talked in the jeepney on our way home. Yet, I never told him what I feel for his cousin. Not this time. No, not yet.

The day ended. I wanted to rest. To sleep. To dream.

GCAT

It's Saturday. I went in the University today. I even saw Christy Geografo, she's a friend and co-psych major of mine. We're both taking our chances for the GCAT.

We took the test. I found it difficult. Very difficult. My head totally ached after taking the test. I felt I was going to fail that very moment after I left the room.

Gosh! Lord, I leave it all to you.

Phone Chat

Few days ago, I started chatting in the phone with Myke. I really hate to chat in the phone because it freezes my ears and it becomes painful wen the conversation lasts even just for 30 minutes. Yet with Myke, I never bothered how long we were chatting. I just wanted to tell my stories and the fact that he's listening is a great thing. I felt someone special. He listens to me. And I the same.

I remember how our night conversations started, it's simple as oneday, I wanted to speak to someone so I texted him and asked if he was busy. The next moment, the phone was ringing. Next days followed, I aksed him to call every after the "Encantadia" a television fantaserye ends. I wanted to watch it each day and wait till it ends and in an instant, the phone will definitely ring.

I don't know, but I feel so wonderful whenever I talk to him. It feels so light. I hope I can talk with him for the rest of my life.

Well, Well, Well... am I falling? No. Yes. Oooopppsss... I don't know yet. If God permits, why not?!